Note that this is crap . It was 1 in the morning and I had nothing to do .

I dont know why I feel like its late already , padahal baru je 12:00 AM. So hi , so I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've been missing the form 5's a lot so I thought maybe I should dedicate a post to them so that they know how much they fucking mean to me :'-)

To be honest, the first thing I thought when I went into boarding school was that how the seniors will judge me. I dont know why but I felt so scared of all the seniors in my new school . I met Hani and Amie first . They came to my bedroom one night cause Izzat wanted to pass me something . We werent that close before this but they were the first 2 seniors whom I actually made a conversation with . We grew closer one night when I went to Hani's room one night to find a jersey cause I was going to tambun the next day . Ended up staying at her room till like 12 , talking about everyyyyything .

I dont know how I got close to the other form 5's but it amazes me in just a short time , in less then a year I could be so close to them . So close that I can even cry just thinking about the fact that they wont be here with me next year . Honestly I am not that close to the seniors in my old school so this thing was kind of new to me . It amazes me how caring they all are and how we can actually communicate despite our differences.

They're all like sisters to me in a way . You see , I am the eldest in the family and I am also the eldest grandchild of the family so the whole older sibling thing doesnt exist in my life. It sucks when you dont have someone older who you can look up to . These people , these seniors of mine are the ones who actually gave me the experience on what it would be like if I were to have an older sibling. Someone I can look up to and share everything with . These are the people who have been with me through thick and thin when I was in boarding school apart from mi bestfriends of course . And the fact that they wont be with me through my hardest year . Just makes me feel so sad . Feels like a part of me is gone . CEHH AYAT . HAHAHA LOL

But another thing I am sad about is that all these people come from different places, different states . So the chances of meeting them are like suuuper duper thin :/ Haih idk laa

Whatever it is , I would like to take this opportunity to thank all my kakak's for being there for me for the whole year . I cant thank you guys enough for all that you guys have done for me . Sumpah Qis akan riiiindu sangat korang . You guys are the best . Nuff said .

I end my post.