I dont have a nice header to put in so Imma just write down what I want.

So , hi . So guess who's back ? Not for the weekends , not for the week not for good but for the month motherfucker ! Yes , it has finally arrived ! The year end holidays . Though I started my holidays like 4 days late cause I attended English camp , but more about that later yeah ?

My finals was a bit shitty , but hey I gave it all I've got so the only thing I could do now was Tawakal lah kan ? :-) now the main reason I wanted to write this post was to tell you guys about my last week of school before the school holidays started . I had my exams then like I said earlier but most importantly it was my last week with my beloved seniors .

Started with Sunday , a day before SPM started , I handed out goodluck letters to 50 of my closes seniors . All of them seem pretty happy upon receiving the simple letter , I didnt write all of them personally ofcourse , I just photstated 50 copies and wrote simple notes on all of them , yang betul betul rapat baru tulis karangan . Monday was a blur , I didnt get to wish Izzat goodluck because his phone got confiscated by the wardens during prep -.- whepee

Tuesday was a blur too but I had the most memoriable dinner that night . I recieved my first note from Sharad on my desk . She said she was going to leave notes everyday so I could read them before class started . we had that fogging thinggy majig so we had to clear the block early . So we were all placed in the surau so I did a little bit of studying and stuff like that . We had dinner after magrib prayers and that night was Keli Night so I decided to have dinner for the first and last time with the form 5's . We arrived at the eating hall late and they were out of rice , so I had to share my rice with Sharad . Ikan keli sendiri sendiri punya laa ofcourse . It was simple but yet I enjoyed every minute of it . Had a good laugh with Nani and Apja and Sharad before going back to the surau for Isya' prayers .

Received my 2nd note from Sharad on Wendesday , nothing much happened though I had a bit of a breakdown after maghrib prayers when we were reciting the Asmaul Husna . Kak Erra hugged me and whispered "words of wisdom" lah katakan hehe . More like advise to study hard for next year and not to forget about the form 5's . That was when I got a bit teary eyed . Sumpah sedih thinking of the fact that they wont be around next year .

Thursday was , okaay ? It was more of like a farewell thing for me . You see , it was my last night with the form 5's. we did our maghrib prayers for the last time together . So , macam biasa during Asmaul Husna I cried like a baby man I swear ! Everyone was hugging each other I couldnt stand it anymore ,I cried like a mofo . Everyone was looking ! Well obviously I didnt care . They were my sisters , they meant a hell lot to me . After Isya' prayers we had to go and send in our text books, I was planning on meeting my uncle and his friends but sadly that night was prep for only boys . So I snuck into the academic block to meet my uncle . He saw my puffy eyes so he knew that I was crying before this . UGH so emberassing I tell you !

ME : Izzat ...*setitik air mata*

IZZAT : Kenapa ni ?

ME : Thank you for everythinggg ..... *waterfall keluar*

I swear I cried my eyes out to him man ! All the boys were looking , memalukan to the max ! Even molley saw me crying , nd he was nice enough to ask me what's wrong hihihi :P I wanted to see the other boys to but sadlyyy Ustazah caught me with Izzat and Moley and asked me to go back . Sadcase betul , so I said my goodbyes and went down . That night , all I did was cry cry and cry . I went to Nani's room that night and shared a tub of ice cream with her and some of the other form 5's .

FRIDAY : was a dull dull day for me , I had like only 2 hours of sleep the previous night cause I stayed up packing all my shit . Those are one of the days I fucking regret bringing a lot of stuff to boarding school . That morning during subuh prayers , I had another emotional breakdown while salam-ing the form 5's . I cried on the way to the dining hall for breakfast . good thing kak Aishah was there to comfort me <3 . Had breakfast for the last time with mi favourite sisters Kak Amie and Kak Hani before returning to the dorm for some last minute packing. Got a text from Kak Hani asking to meet her at 506 so I rushed there with Ama and Zared . They snuck out from Add Math class just to see me for the last time :') Even better , they knew about the incident last night so they brought molley along so I could say goodbye to him for the last time . I swear I felt like crying . I did I think :s HAHA . I returned back to my dorm after that and took my bag . I waited for the form 5's to finish their class before saying goodbye to whoever I saw . It amazes me how close I could be with them in just a few months . Everyone was like bye Qis here and bye qis there . Bertambah kesedihan aku :'( What hurts me the most was leaving Sharad ofcourse , she has been by far the best senior that I have had nuff said . Imma post a picture of what the form 5's gave me soon :-)

I end my post .