" TAK SEMESTINYA JKA SESEORANG ITU BERCAKAP DI DALAM BAHASA INGGERIS , DIA TAK SAYANGKAN BAHASA IBUNDA DIA "

quote; Mat Lutfi .

This caught my attention a few days ago while I was browsing through some of Mat Lutfi;s videos on youtube . This one video called " Judgemental " really caught my eye cause it somehow relates to me and the situation that I have been through . You see , in my new school I've received a few comments on how I dont really know how to speak malay and somehow to other students especially teachers , my BM is not that good . I've got tonnes of teachers asking me why I cant speak malay fluently and why the difference between my BM marks and my English marks are so different . One of the most hurtful comments that I have received just because of this is when one of the students talked behind my back about how dumb I was for not knowing what " pasca globalisasi " was . You ask any form 4 students in my old school half of them dont even know what the fuck that is so why do you have to be so judgemental about the fact that I dont really speak BM quite well ? Like I said , you have to see things from my perspective too . Ever thought about WHY I am not that good in BM ? No right ? Why ? Because some people are just too judgemental ! You see , I grew up having english to be thought as my first language . K fine la I wouldnt say first language but let's just say in a way my parents especially my mom wanted us to be more fluent in english lah considering my mom is also an english lecturer . Another thing is that I have been schooling in a school where most of the kids speak english well wchich explains WHY I communicate more in english . There you have t 2 reasons WHY I am not that good in BM . I am tired of hearing the same hurtful comments about how I am not that good in BM . Not only this , certain people judge me by the way I speak english . See , I'm tired of trying to please everybody . Tak bagus BM kena kutuk , Bagues BI lagi kena kutuk . If like that I might as well not speak lah ! I just dont get why people have to be s o judgmental about how I talk . UGH Even so lah I'm not good in BM , its not like I cant learn right ? I've got the best teacher around ! And being fluent in english has its pro's too okay . So why cant you guys just stop with the whole , " Qis anak mat salleh , dia reti BI je tak reti BM " sure I laugh at this everytime I hear it . But it hurts , it really does . I end my post .