I got into a fight with my one and only guy bestfriend last week and it went bad. We were like 2 different people who dont and couldnt care less about each other now. Ofcourse it got me a little bit upset I mean come on, We've been the best of friends since we were 14 and to be loosing such an amazing guy like him just because we rarely talk nowadays ? I didnt think it was worth it, but at the same time I didnt think it was worth saving this friendship either. I was confused, I was jealous. You cant blame a girl for being jealous, its not that I like him OH NO NO NO . In a sense that, I felt jealous because he somehow somewhat had a new bestfriend too . I just felt replaced. I felt sad and I felt like I just lost an amazing friend. He's not there for me anymore, Im not there for him. We literally couldnt be bothered with each other anymore and it kills me inside so bad to be loosing a friend who meant so much to me . And having to see him doing things we used to do with other people you can imagine how painful it was for me.

So we wanted to settle things. Things were pretty much unsettled cause we tried fixing it over BBM which kind of got things worst cause he texted me late when my head was literally throbbing cause I had such a long day. In the end, we met up . Just by looking at him, I totally forgot about why we fought and I just wanted things to be the same again . I just realized, I just needed to see him thats all. I admit it was a bit immature to fight about these things but come on laa, I cant help it :( I admitted to him about why I was feeling jealous and stuff. So it was kind of a lesson well learnt for me.

What I learnt is that, one should NOT give up on a friendship too easily. If you're thinking of ending a friendship, think again you might just be missing the person just.like.me ! :D All I needed was to see his face and things went back to normal. I guess I shouldnt have made a quick desicion to end the friendship immediately huh ?

Nonetheless, this goes out to you Aidil. My bestfriend, who's always been there for me although things are quite rocky between us these past few months. Just so you know, you are amazing I swear, allthough we've had countless of these little fights all because of my immature behavior. I just want you to know, WHATEVER it is, I will NEVER EVER EVER want our friendship to end . I love you heaps .