''You're so immature, do you even know where babies come from ?''
'' From hospitals ofcourse you think I'm THAT dumb? ''

Hello mi fellow readers,

yes I havent been writing lately cause as some of you may know, I am on a 2 week holiday right now. So Im somewhere in the UK , Canterbury to be exact. This holiday was also because papa was getting his degree from Machester Bussiness School. So it was also because we wanted to go see papa graduate :''-) but more about my trip later when I''ve returned yeah ?

Now that I have found a desktop to post some shit out ( thank you abang wan's desktop) , I shall continue with my rant post. What I should have posted last week. You see, the night before leaving for the UK was prolly one of the worsts nights I've had -.- OK I wouldnt say worst lah cause that would be too overly dramatic but it was a hard night cause one I felt so bloody stupid over the fact that I asked this guy out and 2 I got into a fight with my bestfriend.

To be honest I dont really care about the first part lah. I mean he bailed 3 fucking times without saying sorry. I am not making a big deal out of the fact that he bailed on me thrice. Its just the fact that I felt so STUPID of asking him out. I mean WHAT WAS I THINKING . He was like wayy older, ofcourse he thought hey, she''s just a kid bail sekali dua kali takpa. Oh god I felt so stupid ! I dont know what went through my mind asking him out. Maybe it was the fact that I havent seen him in a year and also the fact that I wanted to change his perception towards me. Cause you see, I was kind of a shy shy gegirl when I first met him and it was so bloody awkward. So I dont want him to think of me as the same awkward penguin he met 365 days before . I've CHANGED ! Whatever it is, I still feel like a dumbass. for asking him out. WHAT WAS I THINKING OHMYGOD ! I can repeat those lines over and over again. I feel so dumb ! Bodoh tahu tak bodoh ! I just dont know what the hell was I thinking, ohmygod *bangshead . Whatever it is, looks like Imma be seein him like, never .

Now number 2 was what left me cryin myself to sleep. Cehh iJoke, but yeah it brought me to tears lah. OHMYGOD Im such a cry baby. Gaduh on IM pun dah boleh nangis heh t(-_-)
Twas the first tim eI got into a huge but mediocre fight with my bestfriend. After I felt so stupid over the whole bailing thing, I just needed someone to pour shit out to, but things got off on the wrong foot and I ended up putting the balme on him for not being there for me. To be honest I feel like I am the wrong one here, cause I needed to put all the blame on someone padahal this whole thing was never really his fault. I just wanted to put the blame on someone and he was the mangsa. I blamed him for not being there for me and not tegur-ing me on IM. OK now the 2nd part is the most stupidest reasons anyone has ever heard of Im sure. This thing was obviously my fault I just didnt wanna accept it. In the end we ended up not talking to each other till now. He still tegur''s me and stuff but heh I dont have the guts to reply. Talk about being a wimp ! .-.-

So I ended my night skype-ing with mi bestfriend from Vietnam till 3 before hitting the sack. Made my night that bitch. Spent an hour an a half ranting about everything to her before going to bed. Speaking of bed, I best be on my way to dreamland now. Iv gots a long day tomorrow. Goin to the Stonehenge. A FOUR HOUR LONG JOURNEY JUST TO SEE ROCKS. IM PRETTY EXCITED ! *insertmajorsarcasmhere* . Bon Nuit ! (yes,I googled what goodnight is in french) LOL night !