She's strong, because she knows what it's like to be weak. She keeps a guard, because she knows what it's like to cry herself to sleep.

Hi everyone . its almost 12 and I am dead on my feet . Im waiting for the clock to strike 12 so I could perfom my solat hajat then go straight to bed . Today 4th of September 2010 my dearly beloved great grandma passed away due to old age . Shes turning the big 100 next year , but what to do ajal dah sampai , so yeah . Twas just like any other day , I went to school , mama went to work . After school , I noticed ki didnt go for Friday prayers so I knew something was seriously wrong , I thought nyang was just sick and all , so I didnt pay much attention . I followed ki back to Shah Alam around 2 , my iPod was on full blast the whole way so I kinda didnt know what was going on . Till like half the way I paused my iPod to listen to wang's phone conversation then I heard " pah , dah takda , dia dah meninggal " masyaAllah , tears filled my eyes . I tried controlling my feelings but tah takboleh yknowww tears kept pouring out , I tried my very best to cry softly but wang heard my sobs and just continued talking on the phone . Arrived in Shah Alam at around 2 , mama was already there , nyang's face was covered with a white cloth , I couldnt control my eyes , I cried summore and went next door . Took my bath , did mu zuhur prayers and waited for everyone to come .

Left for the surau at the back of my house at around 3:00 , mama asked my to help out with bathing the mayat . So yeah I helped out with the others . Twas an interesting experience I shall say , but a sad one too . Seeing her still like that , cried summore T.T . I helped out with the soap and cleaning her nostrils my hands were shaking the whole time , she was all cold and still :s . After powdering her , the older women did the kapan-ing so I waited in the surau . The body was brought into the surau a few minutes later for everyone to pay their last respect to nyang . I gave her 3 pecks on her forehead and both her cheeks . She smelled so nice , and so cold . Mama kept crying the whole time . Her being the closest to nyang , I cant explain how devastated she felt . Another thing that brought tears to my eyes , was when I saw ki kissing nyang for the last time . Tuu tak tahan . A son kissing his own mother for the last time , I couldn't stop myself from crying after that . Did our asar prayers after that , then left for the cemetery . Arrived at around 5 , a hole was already dug by the surau people we waited for the others to arrive . After the burial , did some doa's then we waited for everyone to go home . Recited the Yaasin and went home at 6 . Arrived at 7:15 , berbuka and had a tahlil after Isyak prayers .

Haih , thats all that happened today , every single detail . Nyang , Qis rinduu sangat :'(