Last Goodbye

Woke up around 7 , mama asked me to get ready quickly cause the pengebumian is at around 9 , toke my bath got ready in baju kurung with tudung and all and waited fr papa to pick us up .

Arrived at Mak Yongs house around 8 :30 , the jenazah was still there . Relatives all the way from Ipoh were there too ,

The van came and took Ayah Chor to the suran near by , when they opened the kain thing , HOMG there he was , still in good shape , white as chalk , hes fingernails were all blue , there was no smell at all . Seeing him like that , I couldnt control my feelings at all . Especially seeing his wife , his daughter crying :/

Arrived at the surau , they took arwah to the back fr the Mandi Jenazah thing , I wasnt allowed there , cause well imma girl -_- , I mean they allowed people to see how and what was done , but mama said its better to stay outside , so I did .

Waited patiently with Wang and Umi Teh outside , untill they called upon everyone to go inside the surau . Again , there he was , but this time he was all wrapped up in a white kain , just his face showing , still white as chalk , not breathing , I cried once more . Everyone was allowed to pay their last respect to arwah , I just sat there beside him . Seeing his wife , and his daughter and also his son giving arwah a peck on the cheek before they wrapped him up , that would be the last time I would see his face . They took him away after that for the sembahyang jenazah , I just sat at the back with Wang , Mama went outside , I could see her crying from outside the window . I tried to control my feelings , but cam tak boleh . He's gone :(

Finally , they carried arwah back into the van and took him to the tanah perkuburan . We were escorted by the DBKL people , since arwah worked as one of the senior smthng fr DBKL . Arrived at the tanah perkuburan which was in Cheras Indah , a hole was already dug for arwah the day before . I just sat on one of the tombstones , and just waited . After a few Doa's , they covered him up , with dirt . Last time I saw arwah , now hes gone forever .

I miss you :'(

You gave me presents everytime I come to visit , tak kira murah or mahal . Everytime I wanted something , you would get it for me . Your the one who tells me I look beautiful eventhough I know Im not . You were the one who keeps my ugly pictures in photo frames . You were the one who teases me everytime that certain cousin was around .

Ayah Chor , i miss you .

p.s - sorry for all the broken english , sumpah main tulis je , Im feeling so devastated right now :/